I feel like my world is going 100 mph and there's no way for me to stop it. The kids keep me quite busy and by the time they're down for the night, I'm exhausted and just want to veg. But we're doing good. Surviving. I feel like I'm on auto pilot most of the time.
Ben was able to come home and visit last week. I can't believe it was only last week. It feels like it was forever ago. The days go by fast, but the weeks are loooooooooong. Anyway, it was so great having him home, even for a little bit. We didn't tell Lilli he was coming. Ben wanted it to be a surprise. He texted me when he got here and I had Lilli answer the door. She was so excited! The whole time he was here she kept saying, "Daddy, you're the best surprise ever!" Even after he left she kept saying he was the best surprise ever. She's a hoot. She sure does love her dad! She's been having a really hard time with him being gone. She's been acting up and I'm not sure how to handle her. I have zero patience and it's not helping at all. At the end of the day I think back on what happened and how I acted towards her and I'm not proud of myself at all. I love her and I want her to know that! It's just been hard.
Anyway, we bought tickets to visit my family. We leave at the end of March and I'm so excited. But I think my parents and family are more excited! I'm hoping we can visit Ben's family as well. The kids are going to love love love being around family! And so am I! Though I have to say, I've received so much love and support from friends here in Georgia! I get teary eyed just thinking about all the wonderful people around me who have offered to take the kids and give me a break, or have invited us over for dinner, or are willing to watch the kids for hours while I have appointments, or just getting together and letting kids play. I know that I would be okay if I stayed here. So I guess I just want to tell everyone here in Georgia, THANK YOU!!! I've had a hard time this last week and knowing people care means more than words can express!
I guess with that, I better eat some chocolate and watch the Olympics! I have a long day tomorrow. Sundays are the hardest, BUT I know I'll get through it!
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Shari! I wish I could help, you sound like you have your hands full. I am glad you get to visit your family soon. HANG IN THERE GIRL!!!
I think we are living the same life! :)
I used to think something was really wrong with me because after the kids went to bed I didn't want to blog. Then I realized I was just completely exhausted!
Also, the part about your daughter acting up and not knowing how to deal with her, that is just how I feel about my daughter. People sometimes told me that 3's were harder than 2's and I wanted to run away screaming, "LALALA" with my ears plugged.
Just know you are not alone. Wishing you the best!
I feel like I'm going through a lot of the same stuff right now. It's like you said- life seems to be going fast and really slow at the same time. I also don't seem to have as much patience with my kids as I should and then when they go to bed, I just want to veg. It helps to know I'm not alone on this.
It is SUCH a blessing to be in a place where friends are helping when and where it's needed. I'm almost afraid to move out of the ward here in NE because I've never experienced so much love and support.
How fun that Ben got to come home for a little while! Stephen- my 4 year old- keeps telling me that Daddy's done with school so he can come home now. I wish it were that easy...
Have fun with your family!! I'll have to email you sometime and let you know what all's been going on here.
As I was reading your post I totally identified with looking back at the end of the day and being disappointed with my actions. Don't sell yourself short you have a lot more reason to be in that position than I do seeing as you're a single mom for the moment. You're so amazing! Glad you get to see some family! maybe I'll see you around Cokeville sometime!
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