Tired

Lilli loves to play in Sid's crate. She'll close herself in and lay there. It's kind of funny. I went into our room to find her and this is where she was.

I gave Lilli a bowl of noodles with spaghetti sauce, turned around for a minute and this is what I saw!

Lilli was trying to put her bunny in the high chair.

Giving her bunny kisses.

So as you all know, this last week has been very crazy. With Lilli sick, and Ben being home but not really (sleeping from working all night long). Okay, so maybe it doesn't sound like much, but to me it was crazy. So right now I'm feeling a little worn out. Ben has been really great about helping me out, but still, I'm so tired. I just have to vent. I know my troubles don't even compare to some people's but.................I still feel tired and worn out. I'm tired of cooking, and cleaning, and changing diapers, and feeding the dog. I feel horrible for feeling that way but I do. I love my family very much and wouldn't trade them for anything, but it just gets a little tiring. I feel like I'm at that breaking point. Lilli will wake up 2 or 3 times from 7pm (her bedtime) till about 11 or 12 at night. It's very wearisome and I've tried letting her cry it out, but she won't. She gets more and more worked up the longer I leave her. I put her down early tonight (after throwing a fit because we tried sitting her down to say family prayer). She cried for about 30 minutes and I finally went up there. She just needed her binky and now she's sleeping. I feel like we've gotten so used to going up there, that now she just expects it. We didn't used to go soothe her everytime she would cry. There for a while she was doing awesome at not waking up at all, but then it just started one night at a time and now it's EVERY night. Right now I'm in survival mode (and I know all you mom's out there know what I'm talking about). I just keep praying the Lord will help me. And I know He will!!! I mean, Lilli is just too dag gum cute! Look at those pictures. :)


Last week we were asked to attend a Stake meeting and we were told that our ward would be splitting. We are now in the Grovetown ward. We were in the Harlem Ward. I'm excited for the change, and I know most of the people in our new ward. But I will miss a lot of ward members that are still in the Harlem ward. There were so many great people who helped us out with Lilli a lot and were so kind and loving. We're going to miss them. However, I'm very excited for the new experiences and members that have and will come with this new change. I love our ward and I love our ward members. I have made so many wonderful friendships. With a new ward, also comes new callings. Today, I was called to be the Ward Music Director. I will keep conducting during the sacrament hymns, but there are more responsibilities. I don't know what those are yet, but I have to say I'm a little nervous. I'm excited, but scared. I know the Lord gives us callings for a reason. I just have to have faith that he'll lead me along.